When I began this journey a little over 3 years ago, I couldn't have imagined the path that the Lord has led me on. I been over mountains and hills, found valleys both shallow and deep, and rocky roads with many bumps in all areas of my life. I played this video almost everyday over the past several weeks. It is beautifully sung by The Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir. Our choir sang it several years ago. The words are exactly how I was feeling. I wish we could sing this again and in my dreams, I sing the solo.
When you've been diagnosed with cancer, you never escape the feeling that it will come back and come back with a vengeance. In the back of your mind, you're always thinking about the next oncology visit and what's going on in your body.
Since my last doctor's visit on December 6, my mind has sometimes worked double time. If I'm honest, there were days I convinced myself I was dying and I was planning my funeral and other days I was convinced I was going to live a very, long time. But everyday when an anxious thought passed through my brain, I had to take a breath and say a quick prayer and give it up to God.
Thankfully, December is a very busy month on my social calendar. Between singing for four nights with my choir family, quilt guild, to celebrating the birth of my Savior, Jesus Christ with family & friends, it was a perfect distraction to get me through the battles in my mind.
Over the past month, I have been prayed for by countless prayer warriors and prayed over by the elders from my church. As I went into my appointment on Tuesday, January 10, I knew that whatever the outcome, I was ready and God was holding my hand.
As I waited, I prayed, I sang quietly, and I waited some more. Finally, the Advance Practice Nurse (APN) arrived and after a few pleasantries said quite nonchalantly, "your scan looked good." Quite surprised, I said, "Really?" In fact, she said the liver cyst was a little smaller and everything looked good. We shared a few laughs about her falling down the steps on the way into church and then she left the room to get the doctor.
When the doctor came in, he also confirmed that there was nothing new on the scan. We talked about whether you treat the number or treat what's on the scan. He said it's a fine line and at this point, he was inclined not to "treat" anything. However, he does want me to get another blood test for CA-125 in the beginning of February. Then based on those results, it's either do nothing or I'll need to get a PET scan. No longer just the CaT, but dogs, birds, and fish, too!!! LOL!!!
I've been so relieved over the past few days. I feel like I can plan my life again. But most of all, I feel thankful, grateful and I just stick my hands up and say, "Hallelujah!!!"
To all my faithful Prayer Warriors -- THANK YOU!!!! Your prayers do make a huge difference in my life and I do appreciate each and every one of you. If I could travel to hug all of you, I would do it in a heartbeat. So, just hug your spouse, your children, your parents, your siblings, and your friends a little extra today.
Please pray - My blood test will be early morning on February 6.
Only by His strength,
Sandy
PS - I still need to write my year in review and reveal my word for 2017. God is still speaking to his people and I am listening.
