In Deuteronomy 31, Moses is speaking to all of Israel as they overlook the Promised Land and crossing the Jordan River. He boldly states that he is 120 years old. He tells God's people in verse 3, "The Lord your God himself will go over before you." He goes on to tell them that Joshua will be their new leader. He tells them there are enemies over there, but the victory is already theirs. In fact in verse 6, Moses tells them this, "Be strong and courageous. Do not fear or be in dread of them, for it is the Lord your God who goes with you. He will not leave you or forsake you.” Talk about encouragement!!! But do we really take those words "do not fear" to heart in our every day life???
Over these past 6 weeks, I, along with many of you, prayed for a lower CA125 number. I was "fearful" that the number would go up. I was "fearful" that I would need to get another CT scan and ultimately "fearful" that something new would appear on that scan and "fearful" that another 6 rounds of chemo was in my future.
Then a new song by Francesca Battistelli, "The Breakup Song" started playing on Christian radio. At first, I just thought it was a fun song, but then I really listened to the lyrics. The first line of the chorus just got me. "Fear you don't own me." Then those words became my battle cry. Any time over the past few weeks I was feeling anxious, I would sing out those words, "Fear you don't own me" and thank God that He goes before me not just in test results, but in all things. In fact, as I was driving to my doctor appointment on Tuesday, August 28, this song played. Now that's a God thing!!!
Here is the video of "The Breakup Song":
And although my number went up a smidge, my doctor was not worried and I don't have to go back for 8 weeks - October 23!!!
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Only by His strength,
Sandy
